Heir Apparent

Issue #48 October 2019

Noonday Prayers | Sasha Steensen

The day always

opens wide,

always

peers inside.

Always wants

to know

what is near,

far & wide

& also

what makes

the crops rejoice,

beneath what star to plough,

and when to wed the vines to elms.

I ask the hands I hold

I ask the emerald

I ask the breath and the depth.

You can ask the rooster and the hen.

Though their wings span the breadth,

you can capture them.

You can hold them in your hands.

You can press them to your breast.

I have done as much and they haven’t struggled.

So too the lamb, the goat, the fatted calf.

Ask them.

But can the soul,

once gone,

be captured back?

Ask the dry stalks.

Ask the rattling pods.

*

I sleep and wake

to another way

in mind. There are friends

I ask. And children.

There are tasks I ask.

And plants.

I ask

the winter rye

it says I

            feed upon

            what will come come spring

            and it isn’t only you

            who sing.

            The rooster too.

I ask the morrow.

It says, no,

            I won’t

            take care

            of myself

and yet

I am not without

hope.

*

My girl holds one egg

up to her eye to ask

if its been fertilized.

Light shines through

glair and yolk both.

In this way, no egg

is singular once separated.

It being Sunday,

I thank the oysters

who gave their shells

to the chickens

who gave their eggs

to me.

I ask

the word

compensate.

I feel its weight

in either hand.

It says,

            For some, I come all by myself

            For others, with a friend.

*

I ask the plot of spreading sunchokes

none can eat

and in my cheek

a loanword stuck.

I ask the little mice lodge,

or is it a colony?

Mass of mice babies

founded in a bin

of chicken feed

made a mess of it.

For some, mess means abundance.

For others, there are no means.

I ask my large country.

It says, I’ve failed.

            I’ve not lifted my lamp

            by the golden door.

            I’ve not

            a teeming shore.

*

Today I ask the shard of glass

I swept from the kitchen floor.

I press it deep into my palm

and hold it there as if it were dear

to me. The palm throbbing

as I say my prayer.

I clean out

the garbage disposal,

the rotten lime rind,

the bottle cap.

The sound it won’t make

when it doesn’t rattle.

The ways in which

our compost

can’t hold

every piece

of food

we can’t eat.

The crisis of which

I am not even

a casualty.

*

I ask that which pleases

merely by being seen,

if it can begin to reseed.

I ask my thought undressed.

It says, Needles make good fodder,

            Father, but my soul is a girl.

Mine too, I sing.

I’m a watchwoman of spring.

I bring my hail bin in

lest the hoes of unkind

hefts find me.

*

What work resists anger

all the day long?

I will not let you go,

lest you tell me.

Lest you bless

the reddish-brown bole

into which we are sown,

and the rain also,

and my cat with two

voles

on her pillow,

and the plum

pollinated by the bee

that previously

pollinated

the birch tree.

*

I ask the moon

so as not

to go to ground

too soon.

I ask the rhubarb high

about the rabbit’s eye.

Hornbeam, catkins,

Lamb’s quarters,

Goosefoot, Fat-hen.

The fecundity.

I ask the eaves.

I ask Eve.

She says,

            Sun-up.

            Night-fall.

            It isn’t snowing.

            The wind is blowing.

*

I ask the geneticist

who produced

a complete map

of the chicken genome.

Gallus gallus domesticus.

I ask the grapes which ripen

on a day when we are away.

I ask the skins and seeds

plump in the birds’ bellies.

I ask the daylight

how much its worth

to chip away at ice.

it says,

            measure the shovel and salt

            and by your own body

            divide.

*

Every spring

I ask a whole year’s hope.

I ask the unwilling earth.

Tired of me

she says,

            fate decrees

            everything

            tumbles into a worse

            state

            here, grain

            there, grapes

            olio of seeds,

            ill omen all.

            Tie your worries

            round you,

she says,

            like an ephod,

            apron of God.

*

The land has its own memory:

the valley.

And also the troposphere.

You can ask them if you like.

You can take your kite

out the garage and tie it tight.

You can speak to its sail.

You can send it up into the air.

You can keep your feet

here

on this dry ground

near all that is dear,

and you can ask that

which swoops down.

The nightingale held

in the hawk’s mouth

pleading for its life,

may say,

            she who sings,

            prays twice.